A little talk
I had a good talk with my parentals last night at the dinner table. I talked to them about my job situation.
I have been "looking" for a job for about a year & a half now. I've turned in applications, called and called, had interviews and nothing was turning out for me. Throughout this time, I had babysitting jobs and working for my grandma... I had things to do to get money if I wanted it. I just couldn't figure out why I hadn't gotten a "real" job yet. Was it because I had no job experience? Was it because I just suck at interviews? I couldn't figure it out. But then I realized, maybe I'm not supossed to have a "real" job. Maybe childcare is what I'm supossed to be doing! I had been thinking that for a couple weeks, but I never really came down to it.
At church on Sunday, Beth Kitchens came up to me and she asked me how I was doing and how my job search was going. (I used to go to coffee with her a few years back. I would hang out with her instead of going to youth group. That was better for me than youth group was! Also more fun.) I said "not very well." Then I told her what I was thinking. That maybe I'm not supossed to have a job...and so on. She said "well just keep praying about it! I know it's hard! Your parents are looking out for you and they want you to have job experience and they want you to do well! It's hard to know what to do. Well I'm praying for you that you will figure it out. Keep talking to God and he will tell you!"
So dinner time last night during this conversation, my mom said "So are you just saying this because you are feeling discouraged about not finding a "real" job or are you really feeling called to babysit and do childcare?" I was like "huh...good question." She said "well we still need money from you to pay for Jonah's dance. How do you know you will have enough money to pay for that every month if you don't have a solid pay day?" I said "I know as long as I keep tithing, there will be enough money for the things I need."
In the end, I know that babysitting and being around kids is what I need to be doing right now. I don't know if God is preparing me for something or what. But I know that I don't need to worry about anything because God will provide! I'm really thankful for Beth helping me decide and for her and everyone who allows me to babysit for them :)
...Okay the end.